Living your mission as a way to purify

From horndog to forging legacy

I have the best conversations with my brother. We go deep. He was always the most intuitive person in our family (who also calls me out on my BS the best). And that is to say something considering that our mom was a legit witch (a master witch) and so all my brothers have special gifts.

We talked about how to transmute sexual energy (the unhealthy “possessive and invasive” aspect of it) into its healthy expression. Which we both know is the most powerful drive in human beings. And it came down to man’s mission.

We also talked about healing. Healing is a word that may lead to many different ideas. In the context of our conversation I refer to healing as a way to come back to our natural state, which our entire society is stubbornly set to disturb. I would go as far as saying that there is no existing “modern society” in which a state of dis-ease is not its “natural” way of functioning. So healing for me is really the massive amount of inner work one has to embark on in order to undo the damage that was done to us by our loving parents, teachers, economical system(that has nothing economical about it and which inevitably leads to life long rat race after money) and the rest of the dependency System- done with both their best (in case of parents and sometimes even teachers) and the worst (governments, corporations etc.) intentions.

That work is really never ending since society is ever more toxic. Mere outer reflection of our inner landscape. Thus the importance of “healing”, which can really only be done on an individual level as a powerful consistent push of intent and action. There is nobody to blame but at the same time we are quite innocent about the dire state of affairs on Earth- simply because we do not have the Free choice to the point that some spiritual agenda propagators try to tell us. Nope. There is a self-serving intent of titanic proportions pushed upon humanity from an outside source at all times aimed to harvest our energy which casts a grey blanket over humanity, and which operates by pulling us out of balance. Emotionally, mentally, physically and spiritually. That is why I do not believe in the concept of karma, but I do believe in the law of consequences. We are not free. But we possess all the tools to set us free.

The reason why 1 in a million (if not less) sets himself/herself truly free and by doing so can’t be sucked into Matrix’s harvesting net anymore is because the Parasite is 1. very powerful & intelligent (and ancient) 2. goes either completely unseen or is totally underestimated by those few who know about it.

What we see as “reality” and consider “normal” is neither reality and certainly not normal. All we see is a world made to reflect our inner state of disequilibrium which in turn creates more of it which in turn makes it easier for the Parasite to govern us without being seen while harvesting ever increasing amounts of our source energy. Vicious circle.

Can “healing” be man’s life mission? I should perhaps begin by stating what man’s mission means to me. Man’s mission is his legacy. It is the thing that he/she came here to accomplish. Whether you like it or not, in most cases the mission is quite different for a man that it is for a woman. If you can’t see that in every tiny piece of nature I’d have hard time convincing you that the sustaining and nurturing touch of FEMININE is not the same as the creative building/conquering spear of MASCULINE. One cannot be without the other and one CANNOT BE THE SAME.

Man’s mission is that one thing that he will unconsciously seek his whole life and die un-whole and maybe even miserable if he doesn’t 1.find it 2.accomplish it.

What it is for you- nobody can tell you. Sack Rome, build Taj Mahal, or make an oasis in a desert, only you can know. Maybe it’s just building that biological pond in your garden. But if it is not creative (often involving matter not only mental plane), doesn’t excite you and at least indirectly doesn’t impact other humans positively the chances are that it is not your life’s mission.

Life’s mission can change over a lifetime, but not that often (or not at all). It’s a fortress that you won’t conquer overnight (or in 1 year). My mission has a lot to do with art, and wisdom of the hands which are really extensions of the heART, not head. Making flourish the things that I started well, then polluted them by an unbalanced mind, and left unfinished wallowing in the victim’s sorrow. Weeding that garden and seeing the first flowers bloom on what seemed like a constant battlefield is my mission now.

Which brings me to answer the key question: no, I don’t think that man’s mission is exclusively healing (inner self-healing). But it will be a rough, if not entirely impossible journey to walk if healing doesn’t go hand in hand with it. In this sense we have two major tasks as humans here (or so I feel it now)- to heal (unhook the parasite’s claws from our energetic structure and thus reach our natural equilibrium) and find and live out our life’s mission.

The good news is that they mutually enhance each other. The more you step into your mission the more you heal with ease. And vice versa.

How does it tie into sexual energy and the conversation with my brother? I recently realized that I was a horndog (objectifying women and “chasing tail”) most of my life although I have discovered my life’s mission early on and pursued it quite diligently. Until the two things started coexisting simultaneously in my daily life- solid spiritual routine (dangerously misused word these days, maybe I should call it “inner viewing”) and relentless pursuit of my life’s mission. That gave me the necessary power to have any sort of winning chance (still small and not constant, let’s not boast) over the Parasite, who really loves the “impurities” in sexual energy. That is really how it enters and possesses vast portions of humanity now (proliferation of porn and “body-based” sexualized social media).

Sexual energy and creative energy are one and the same. It won’t transmute into creativity in absence of life’s mission and it will be hard to manage if you lack discipline that comes only through deep commitment to your healing (aka the true spiritual path).

Hey, I still like to look at beautiful women. But now I learned to lower my gaze and not glue my eyes to her ass when she’s not looking. Especially when she is not looking.

As I navigate this world of distractions I sometimes get a glimpse of the sweetness that FREEDOM is. The freedom not to act out impulses, the freedom to remain silent when you want to react and be right, the freedom not to look good or be accepted. The freedom that comes from cleaning out one’s sexual life and field, having one’s mission always in sight and under one’s moving feet, while never falling into the false belief that “my healing is done”.

Once you touch spirit, chances are that you won’t call yourself spiritual or talk about your “spiritual practice” much anymore. It will become a private love affair between you and you (and consequently everything else).

I still have a long way to go so these grand words ring really authentic when my fingers type them and all I say is shadowed by a thought that silence might have been a better choice. It feels like I know less and less these days. What an adventure!

Be well friends. Thank you for reading.